I don’t know whether it’s a little impatience, anxiety or actual pregnancy symptoms, but I’m feeling something.
I don’t remember getting anything similar throughout Corben’s pregnancy but then again I don’t remember that much in the whole blur of it.
I was younger back then, it was my first experience of pregnancy and Donetta and I had only been together for 3 months. So everything was so overwhelming it kind of just happened and then I was a dad.
This time everything has been planned. We’ve been together almost 8 years so our relationship is different, our working life is vastly different and in general everything is just different. It has meant that this time we’ve been able to take it all in every single step of the way. I mean, we’ve documented the whole thing for you lot as well as ourselves.
It’s only been this week leading up to the due date. Before this I’ve been absolutely fine, concentrating on preparation and getting on with life.
Actually, this pregnancy has been so relaxed it’s been weird. The first couple of months were horrendous as we’ve documented, but since then it’s been textbook.
About a week before our due date I started feeling sick. Just pains in my stomach and I’ve gone off all food. Now it could just be a bug but I generally feel OK, it’s just this stomach pain and not eating. It lasted a few days and then vanished. Then it came back! It’s been on and off for just over a week now.
Once we hit the due date I’ve then been really wanting dry toast. Just toast with NOTHING on it. I’m not sure it’s a craving but I’ve fancied it several times in the last few days.
I think this next thing may just be my brain overthinking during this life changing time and down to having more time to sit and think than usual. But, I’ve just been thinking about our entire life, our career and what kind of dad and man I want to be for our family. Strange really because I usually over-think everything anyway but this just feels different, different enough to mention.
Add these things together and the conclusions I’ve come up with are:
1 – Having a baby is a life changing moment and because all of our work has been done, all of our preparation has finished, all there is left to do is wait around and that’s giving my usual self way too much time to over-think everything. Also, I just happen to have a stomach bug and part of the recovery is dry toast!
2 – I am genuinely experiencing pregnancy symptoms as a man. It’s not that far fetched, I know it’s an actual thing, and for me I’m a really involved husband and dad. So, it’s not mad to think this is what’s happening to me.
I feel fine, other than a few stomach pains, nothing like what Donetta is going through obviously but it’s something I never thought I’d experience.
If this is what having a week off is doing to me, I’m off to book in as much work as possible!
40+2… Still no baby yet.